I find myself in the middle of a very difficult situation and I have no idea what to do about it. Either way I go, things could go great, or not. And I'm a little frustrated because someone I usually enlist for advice has been preoccupied, but oh well. That is why I find myself putting it all out in here.
So here's the deal - I want to move to New Zealand. Yes, I'm absolutely serious. I got to thinking while in Cozumel about how I've never really lived outside of Arlington and before I settle down with the career, family, etc, I want to have experienced my fair share of the world. I see living and working in New Zealand for a period of time as fulfilling that. For a while after returning from Mexico, that 'want' was very much a 'need' for me. I'm getting more than enough support from my parents and most friends (that I've told anyways).
On the other hand, doubts and some other friends' expressed opinions have since lessened the desire. It's hard to explain what exactly this feeling is that I have to go out and experience something for myself and it's just easier not to. It just feels right to me and I guess I'm the only one who needs convincing here, right?
All that being said, I've been thinking about photography a lot, professionally speaking. I could quite seriously see myself pursuing a degree in that field and enjoying the job. I know enough people in the field and have enough of an interest to actively pursue it. I want to get started with this back at school as soon as I feel possible. This would also, of course, take a second to becoming a firefighter, which I still adamantly want to pursue first and foremost.
So my dilemma is this: Do I indulge in my need to experience a different life and culture overseas for six months and return to 'normal life', or enroll in classes in the fall and accept my life here?
Feel free to tell me whatever you think. At this point, I'm open to suggestions...
Current Song: 'Transatlanticism' by Death Cab for Cutie
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Thursday, February 07, 2008